Determined

Me at San Antonio Temple

I have had a lot of reflecting time these past 2 weeks.  I feel like the Lord is helping me see areas that I need to improve in my life so that I can have a more fulfilling existence here.  I love how he teaches me.  It is humbling to see my weaknesses, but instead of shame I feel a determination to do better and loving support from my father in Heaven.  

One of my weaknesses is that I have had poor follow through in my life.  I can list all of the excuses why, but the bottom line is that I have not fully developed myself in any one area in my life to where I feel proud of the accomplishment.  Of course having and raising children is certainly a huge accomplishment that I am whole-heartedly dedicated to, but I am speaking for myself.  For Robyn. My friend who likes to follow horoscopes pointed out to me that I am a Gemini, and it is characteristic of us to be "jack of all trades but master of none."  That's exactly how I feel.  I want to get deeper than that.  I want to master some skills.  I want to make goals and follow through with them.  I want to me known (not for fame) and described as one who was really good at _______.  I recognize that I have many strengths that I have been blessed with.  But I'm speaking of a specific skill as well.

This blog is what I'll be using to record my goals for the year and report as I go along.  This is my year to have a "house of order."  Not only my physical house and how I run it, but my own house- my body, me as a person.

Goals:

1. Spiritual - My study will be focused on enlarging my heart to love unconditionally and to really understand the gifts that the Lord has blessed me with and how He would have me use them- specifically for missionary work.  I was touched by this blog post on Giftedness and identified several ideas on how to study spiritually this year.

2. Financial-  Make and keep a budget.

3. Physical- Get back into the best shape of my life.  I will follow the Tone it Up program.

4. Blog/Pictures- Every Sunday for family blog, and often here.  I will also be organized with pictures and print photo albums this year.

5. Talent- I want to develop my talent on the piano and be able to accompany any hymn at church.

I know this is a tall order, but I know I am capable of these things with the help of the Lord and with accountability.  It's going to be a great year!